As I woke up this morning, I was guided last night that today is the day that I shall expose part of my journey. With that being said, today is the Fourteenth Day of my Spiritual, Mental, and Physical journey.
I have lost 10 pounds in 14 days; I can stay on the elliptical on a level 14 for 5 minutes straight…I can accomplish 4 miles in 45 minutes roughly. My push-ups, sit-ups, and squats, I can do endlessly. I have pushed my body mentally and physically beyond capable limits that I thought were incapable. I have found this balance mentally with my body in which I have found a deeper understanding and respect for.
I haven’t popped a Neurontin in 14 days just to get me by. I no longer turn to food as a crutch but rather to nourish my body. Sugar, candy, Starbucks are no longer a drug but rather depleting my body from them has proven that they no longer control me emotionally.
Every morning I wake up, sometimes at 4:30am and sometimes at 6:00am. Somedays I work out 2-3 times depending on how I am feeling mentally and physically. I make my shake and pack my lunch; start coffee for Lupe and talk to the dogs as I prepare for my day. I pack all my essentials for my day: my journals, 2 – 1.5liters of smart water, my laptop, my gym clothes, and my makeup. Sometimes I work out before work, but mostly on my lunch breaks and after work and school. Being a single 25 year old woman, doing everything on her own, going to work every day 10 hour days, then attending class after, and then the gym after just to go home, go to bed, and do it again the next day….it is not easy…but at this rate that I am going…I want more!
Mentally and physically as I get stronger every day and push myself, I find a deeper understanding of my purpose and what I need to do to accomplish my goals and dreams. I know that right now everything is temporary and soon enough, I will be where I need to be.
Olympic Gym was the gym of my choice in this small town of Porterville. I was instantly told by the Universe that that is the gym that will help me change my life. The atmosphere there is so motivating in a sense that I cannot describe. I feel safe and comfortable there. Sharon Hall, the owner is not only encouraging and motivating, she makes me feel like I am more than a customer but more like family, like the gym is not just hers but mine also. I don’t know very many people there but I made a friend yesterday…he has good taste in cars. When I arrive there every day, I instantly feel like I am in a movie. Every individual there is so unique in their own way, lost in their own world. It’s not about how you look there or how much you can lift or squat but more about life and goals in general. Everyone is free from judgment and only sends good vibes; we all know our purpose at this gym.
After I get off the elliptical, I typically go in the room for what feels like forever and work on my core, arms, legs, etc. Sometimes I sit there and meditate, stretch, and release all my fears for long moments at a time.
Prior to this journey, I have been working out all wrong. I have pushed through that mental barrier and am now part of that 1%. Once you reach this point that I am at, you already know what I am speaking of.
I have set bigger goals through the hours I’ve spent kicking my ass on the elliptical. This August, Wiz Khalifa tours in San Francisco; I plan on not only going to his concert, VIP, but partying with him. Secondly, by September, I will work hard enough to save up to take a trip to Bali for a month or so while living off the land and just allowing life to take control. Just live so freely for month learning, writing, and experiencing.
I do not take any diet pills. I wanted this all 100% raw and organic; old fashioned diet and exercise. Hairfinity Hair Vitamins has taken my hair to an unrealistic healthy state and have been with me since day one thanks to the best grandmother in the world, G-Unit. I invested in some Dre Beats of course, while blasting Wiz Khalifa and G-Eazy at the highest volume possible. I turn to Jamba Juice’s “Greens and Gingers” when I need a pick me up. I have Gabrielle Bernstein’s book, “A Course in Miracles,” on hand at all times.
There have been some really important people who have been a part of this journey. My parents, who constantly support me and accept me for who I am; They never judge me and always shower me with love and are so motivating as business owners. My grandmother, who is the most giving and genuine woman always supporting me and concerned about my health and finances. Megan, who has been with me since day one when I decided to start; I am so fortunate to have as my best friend. Sammo, who always inspires my creativity and never fails to make me laugh, not to mention I can talk to about anything. Jodah, who has helped me spiritually to get to where I need to be. Molly and Jennifer Sims, who constantly support and inspire me and welcome me with open arms. Susie, who inspires me and gives me strength. Rachelle and Mark Balderama, who are some of the funniest, greatest, and good hearted people I know, who are my sister, brother, and best friends. Lupe, my roommate and one of my best friends who is the most loving, supportive, smartest, and sassiest woman I know. Alex, who is serving our country overseas, who inspires me every day to get up and strive. When you look at the stars, know I am looking back.
My goals and dreams are bigger than anyone can imagine and for some probably think are impossible or just dreams. I made a promise to myself and God and I know what I need to do. I released all fears 14 days ago and I am a new woman every day.
To be continued….